Inside

December 9, 2007 at 12:43 pm (illneverleaveusfallingtopieces, life, you)

    It’s a complicated morning, as everything I said last night refreshes inside my head over and over again, like a tornado that may just hit everything I created. And there’s only one good thing I ever created: our nice house, a ray of light in the middle of the dark forest, the only place I feel secure and happy. Where I want to forget about all that is evil and wrong. I left my heart inside, so, perhaps, I act different when I walk outside sometimes. It’s dangerous outside. We shouldn’t walk outside…

I’m so sorry.

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Tie me down, Cure me up

November 19, 2007 at 4:11 am (amen, control, delirium, illneverleaveusfallingtopieces, life, love, you)

Break IT down… so IT won’t stay
Tie
IT down… so IT won’t stay

Here I am, back to my shelter… There’s the some sort of protection around… I’ll be hiding a bit, searching a bit… maybe I can find myself again.

The sky is purple and it’s raining wild. The windy atmosphere throws the sand off the deck, water blessing it’s rough surface. It’s dark, yet only inside, yet only sometimes, yet never as only I can feel it, yet I tend to talk about it, once in a while…

It’s late again…

It’s coming…it’s my time to let you hide
Can’t keep you trapped inside
It’s here now…it’s the point of no return

So, fuck off, evil thing. I need control again. I need to be myself. you’ll have to leave. you don’t even need to be called somehow… you don’t even exist… you’re dying… you’ll not hurt me again, you’ll not hurt her again…
Fading out into those better days
Surrender to the joy you give…
Exchange my future for a priceless smile
It seems to be the perfect trade

i LOVE her, cause she’s the most beautiful thing in the world, cause she’s the most wonderful smile in the universe, cause it’s her eyes i see every night, when i close my own, cause the all the sugar in the world can’t exchange that sweetness…

destroy all you can, but you can’t destroy that.

It seems the perfect spot…to lose myself IT
To feel again….
Would you feel my word?
More than words can say…

It’s done… :)

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