Long summer nights

June 18, 2017 at 4:12 am (nothing's wrong)

Summer nights are already long, so why not make them even longer. There’s plenty of time to sleep during the day. This night I cried. A lot. Emotions are still present. That’s a good thing, because I thought I don’t have any left, really. I hugged my mom today, we spent time together. I went out in the evening. It rained. We talked about stuff. We drank wine. And beer. Beer with honey. Because it’s always nice to add something sweet to something not so sweet. The future is uncertain. I feel like I should live more. I’m thinking of all sort of stuff. Mostly sad stuff. I’m also thinking about doing something drastically different in the nearby future. And I’m kind of bored. And tired. My health isn’t great, but there’s no time for that. I started having some regrets today, about my past, about all the mistakes I did, about how my life could have been totally different today. Sure. But maybe it’s just how it’s supposed to be. It’s not that bad. I’m happy. Sometimes. I miss my friends. Thing’s are different now, everyone is seeking something else. We’re not that united anymore. I miss very special friends also. I really really do. I miss a hug. I miss 10 minutes…

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