I’m damaged. My body, my soul. Everything. I am scared. I function because of the people around me. I live for the people around me. I don’t live for myself anymore.
I need a reboot. Can I turn back time? Say, 10 years ago. I promise I will make it better. It’s not like I can make it any worse.
People have left me, I have left people. I turned to animals, to God. Although I go on and off about this stuff. I am afraid.
I am a mess, physically, mentally. I can’t go on like this. I’m not sure how long my mind can handle this.
Everybody should leave me alone, I don’t want to disappoint you… again.