Intro zi m-am îndrăgostit de o frunză.
Îmi amintea de vioara de deasupra dulapului,
Din lemn.
Sau poate dragostea îmi amintea de sunetul corzilor întinse,
Şi ciupite din când în când, la momente perfecte de timp,
Pe care nimeni, însă, nu le avea scrise undeva – Erau pur şi simplu acolo.
Ca şi stelele.
Ca în noaptea aceea în care priveam cerul,
Şi descopeream sisteme solare,
Pe care le puteam admira, fără să fim deranjaţi
De razele soarelui – Care ucid.
Toamna, nu mai era la fel, deşi am păstrat-o în sertar,
Intro carte.
Poate că nu am ales bine cartea.
Dar frunza era tristă şi nu se mişca…
Am strâns-o în mână şi am lăsat-o să zboare.
Intro zi voi zbura şi eu.
Waiting
cold feet hit the ground
under the quiet night
to find the perfect path
to take me to that perfect spot
where the water is not so deep
and where the distance is all so gone.
See
I woke up today, just after a heavy sleep. Woke up… just to see myself sleeping again.
But, to my amazement, I felt something incredible. With my feet wrapped in the sand, just like Belgian chocolate, the freezing water of the north got me, kicked me. And I just stood and watched. Cause it brought me relief. The grey pale sky, the small, loud waves, they all ate me, ate all my fears, all my problems, all I ever had anyway. I wanted to stay, I wanted to live there, to watch, to let it overwhelm myself…
Was so beautiful.
Like honey falling from my spoon the same morning, creating a maze, spinning randomly. A maze to my heart and soul. Or a random maze to someone else’s. More sweeter than honey, more powerful than the sea, and ultimately more powerful than me.
Two eyes suddenly displaying in front of me, everytime I try to get my mind of regular stuff. Those to eyes I could watch forever. Now lost.
Lost and lonely… blocked… thoughts…
Missing everything
Day Dreaming
Old cities, rainy and wet.
New cities, calm, though, lonely.
Hours pass by, every day, on the nowhere road, while memories roll down by my very eyes, dripping like paint, on a big white wall.
<<Creating beauty>>
Black
Haven’t had a great night… Nightmares creeping in my head, just after a cold shower of panic attacks, little monsters hiding themselves in my brain, afraid of the big monsters that took over.
I hate being alone.
Browsed memories, heart touching photos, mind blowing videos. All left me standing tall in this black water that has yet to drown me. Expecting nothing, waiting for nothing. No point in sleeping, no point in living. And one more stupid test to prove me right…
RULES:
1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesnt make sense. NO CHEATING!Here goes:
How are you feeling today?
Kate Bush – King of the Mountain
Not even close… Or the mountain is very smallWill you get far in life?
Modest Mouse – The World at LargeHow do your friends see you?
Little Richard – Rock, Long Tall Sally
Long tall… well that’s pretty obviousWill you get married?
The Beatles – I Want You (She’s So Heavy)
So Heavy? Perhaps an elephant. What a special relationship ;)What is your best friend’s theme song?
Pearl Jam – SometimesWhat is the story of your life?
Bob Marley – Chances Are
Quite true…What was high school like?
Placebo – Black Eyed
“I was never faithful
And I was never one to trust
Border-lining schizo
And guaranteed to cause a fuss
I was never loyal
Except to my own pleasure zone
I’m forever black-eyed
A product of a broken home” :(How can you get ahead in life?
Bob Marley – Soul Captive
Not on my own, that’s for sure :)What is the best thing about your friends?
REM – Endgame
?!What is in the store for this weekend?
Gorillaz – White Light
At the end of the tunnel?What song describes you?
Dire Straits – Once Upon a Time in the West
in a small town i was born ;)To describe your grandparents?
The Offspring – Head Around You
They rock! :)How is your life going?
The Beatles – Nowhere Man
Couldn’t have describe it better myself…What song will they play at your funeral?
REM – New Orleans Instrumental
chilling…How does the world see you?
The Doors – Light My Fire
this might relate to the previous :SWill you have a happy life?
The Beatles – Can’t Buy Me Love
at least it’s not about the moneyWhat do your friends really think of you?
Zdob si Zdub – Intro 450
?!Do people secretly lust after you?
U2 – Original Of The SpeciesHow can i make myself happy?
Graham Coxon – Ribbons and Leaves
leaves! :)What should you do with your life?
Julio Iglesias – Derroche
derroche = waste
Well, I’m off for a great startWill you ever have children?
Kumm – Now And After
Fairly late Fairy tale
Silence, and everything else that goes with it. I reach my hand to the bottomless jar of worries, to pick up another fruit, just to leave my mouth sour again. Dreams of us growing up and getting together so fine, more than words could ever describe. Dreams of small problems, dealt with powerful actions, that bring joy and pride to my heart.
A carefully selected afternoon where there’s no happiness at all, just the slowest clock in the world, pouring the time in a never ending cycle of madness. There’s no where to go yet. Things will change when the night comes. Just a few more hours, perhaps. Difficult to think, my mind is numb. I always dream of a fairytale kind of ending to a day like this. Of course, it’s more like a fairytale start to the next. Ideas pumping, kicking each other’s supremacy. Love will squeeze yourself out, you mad clock…
Tie me down, Cure me up
Break IT down… so IT won’t stay
Tie IT down… so IT won’t stay
Here I am, back to my shelter… There’s the some sort of protection around… I’ll be hiding a bit, searching a bit… maybe I can find myself again.
The sky is purple and it’s raining wild. The windy atmosphere throws the sand off the deck, water blessing it’s rough surface. It’s dark, yet only inside, yet only sometimes, yet never as only I can feel it, yet I tend to talk about it, once in a while…
It’s late again…
It’s coming…it’s my time to let you hide
Can’t keep you trapped inside
It’s here now…it’s the point of no return
So, fuck off, evil thing. I need control again. I need to be myself. you’ll have to leave. you don’t even need to be called somehow… you don’t even exist… you’re dying… you’ll not hurt me again, you’ll not hurt her again…
Fading out into those better days
Surrender to the joy you give…
Exchange my future for a priceless smile
It seems to be the perfect trade
i LOVE her, cause she’s the most beautiful thing in the world, cause she’s the most wonderful smile in the universe, cause it’s her eyes i see every night, when i close my own, cause the all the sugar in the world can’t exchange that sweetness…
destroy all you can, but you can’t destroy that.
It seems the perfect spot…to lose myself IT
To feel again….
Would you feel my word?
More than words can say…
It’s done… :)
